Apology to the fibs community

[resh_lakish]

To the fibs community:

I have been thinking of this letter for awhile. When pressed, or when need to, I can be very persuasive in English.

Therefore, I don't want to write much.

I broke the trust of the fibs community, being a long time user (with good repbot reputation, low number of saved games, friends); I also broke the trust of individual people on fibs, during my rant, which I went out of my way to hurt with both the words I said and not taking advice and picking up my phone, etc.

To be honest, I am without words, other than I am contrite and to the extent that my manic episode resolved and I have insight, today this is my attempt at an apology.

Therefore, I apologize to both the fibs community to itself and and the individual users who either i broke their trust or went out of my way to hurt with my words.

resh_lakish

[diane]

Thank you for this apology resh.  My hope is that you understand what you are apologising for.  No one, at least I hope no one, is concerned for the words that were thrown around, but that you were having an episode and people were genuinely concerned for you, but unable to help - you were spurning any help.

All the community wanted was to help, wanted you to be well and your usual self.

If we see you bragging or laughing about those events, that undermines this apology - and as much as any person attempting suicide is no bragging or laughing matter, neither is this.

The real apology will be to look after yourself, visit an appropriate health care worker to take steps to ensure you don't go there again.  I don't know if that is possible, I know there are financial issues - is your shiny new free health care system in place yet?  Is it something you can benefit from?

[resh_lakish]

i have found there is still a taboo about mental illness among people in general. to some extent i have tried to be out with it, mainly to try to let people know of my weaknesses socially. forgetting real suicide. my rant on fibs and another site was a form of personal social suicide. as we would say about addictions in general; be they chemical or similar, all come from the same place. so does suicide. though i didn't directly hurt myself psychically, socially i definitely did commit suicide and it had repercussions.

therefore, i wont say in public, how i treat my chronic mental illness, other than that i have a tremendous amount of insight and have done research and seen a number of psychiatrists. i have been very drug compliant for over a decade. i get my meds for free, which is great. i see a private psychiatrist, for very short appointments when needed. i could say more.

further, i have even counseled others regarding mental illness. i think every one of us struggle with the same problems, those like me, diagnosed with a disease, and seeing improvement from a number of psych meds, from the 90% of the population who, though challenged are able to manage without, drugs doctors or therapy. To the credit of the fibs community, it something people here take seriously, unlike another site, I was quickly banned from logging in again, though still owning a valid membership.

[diane]

I have been around people with these kinds of issues a lot.  They read about it, they try to fix it by understanding and self diagnosis and self treatment.  In a lot of ways, that is totally natural - in a life where they feel they have little control over anything - controlling their own wellbeing is something they feel they must do.
It is also laudable when someone seeks to do this - it is a recognition of a problem, and a real attempt to do something about it.

But, in much the same way that a person with heart disease, a broken leg or cancer can do a lot of research and understand their plight entirely, and work themselves to offset and mitigate symptoms - what they really need to do is see a doctor.  The same applies when the problem is an equally real brain / biochemical imbalance.

[Yvon]

Resh it takes guts to apologize the way you did. You deserve credit for that.
Are you sure your participation at Fibs is a good choice for having fun?
I mean playing at Fibs is enough to cause psychological problems to totally healthy people,  imagine what it could do to people at your condition....

KEEP OUT OF IT my friend, that's coming from my heart.

Take care.

[stog]

for fried fibsters i put this up
http://www.fibsboard.com/ideas-science-and-philosophy/google-search-gthow-to-quiet-the-mind/


gl

[socksey]

Resh it takes guts to apologize the way you did. You deserve credit for that.

I quite agree!     Cheers,poopsie!   

socksey



"Please don't avoid me. You can't catch my grief. My world is painful, and when you are too afraid to call me or visit or say anything, you isolate me at a time when I most need to be cared about. If you don't know what to say, just come over, give me a hug or touch my arm, and gently say, 'I'm sorry.' You can even say, 'I just don't know what to say, but I care, and want you to know that'." - Virginia A. Simpson, Troy, Michigan 'The Compassionate Friends' newsletter

[Yvon]

I quite agree!     Cheers,poopsie!   

socksey



"Please don't avoid me. You can't catch my grief. My world is painful, and when you are too afraid to call me or visit or say anything, you isolate me at a time when I most need to be cared about. If you don't know what to say, just come over, give me a hug or touch my arm, and gently say, 'I'm sorry.' You can even say, 'I just don't know what to say, but I care, and want you to know that'." - Virginia A. Simpson, Troy, Michigan 'The Compassionate Friends' newsletter

Hey poopsie, I am a poopsy! Cheers

[socksey]

Subject: relaxing the mind and body

http://www.ecosalon.com/stressed_anxious_frayed_24_simple_effective_ways_to_quiet_your_mind_in_24_hours_or_less/

socksey




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